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-"Let Me Know" (I know it's been a while, but uhh) Tell me, Ma, are you down for this? I'm so into you I can't get enough Just let me know And we can go And do the things you ain't never done before Take you to a little cruise here Take good care of you You ain't gotta worry Girl, just let it go I'll ease your mind We can go anywhere Just let me know Bring you underneath the night sky So I could get to know how you want it Would you let me lick it up? Or hit the back? But if not, then I could wait for you Ain't no rush, mami, let's take it slow Don't wanna go too fast and let this blow Girl, I'm feelin' you Yes, this is true And I would like to know if you're into me So I hit the stop, tell me you like that? And I got more to come Don't you worry I'll pick you up Then we'll get down And all you gotta do is let me know (Let me know, ma) (I know you wanna get together) (And Believe it or not) We can do anything you want, ma As long as you give me a chance And let me show you that My heart is true And it's for you Ain't nobody else can take your place in me We'll go take a ride to the mountains Where we could be alone, just you and me Day in and out I'll make you shout And give you all the things that you want and need Or I could take you to into the city Where we'll be able to spend the night I'm huggin' on you You're huggin' on me And everything just feels oh so right You can't deny that you feel it too Cuz when you're with me, it's amazin' We can do it all Girl, it's your call And all you got to do is let me know (Let me know, ma) (Just let me know) Alright ma, let's stop the games here You and I both know this You and I could hold this Love together I see it in your eyes Whenever you walk by Starin' at my ride And hope I'd stop by Lookin' at your size I know I can't lie That you've caught my attention And, girl, did I mention? That when you're around I make no sound Cuz I'm mesmerized When I make contact with your eyes And when you talk to me I can hardly pay attention Cuz you're so close to me And so beautiful, ma And you make me wanna Just hold you tight Treat you just right And make sure that you'll be Treated nothin' but purely And surely be The only one for me Cuz I can't get enough And it's a little tough When you're not around I start feeling down Until you make your way back into my life, ma (And let me know) (Just let me know) (Ha haa..) Mark at 8/01/2004 08:21:00 PM Let's go ma Let's uhh Take this to the floor, huh Betcha Neva Heard this nigga flow, huh Once you do, them panties gotta go, yawp Enough 'bout me, I'd really like to know ya Tell me, ma, are you lookin' for a soldier? If not, oh well, really nice to meet ya But uhh If ya Like me to Please ya Just for the night, I'm sure I can please ya Friend wanna come, go ahead and take her I'll do both of you like Kobe from the Lakers Ok, he did one, nobody cares, huh Oh my, pardon me, I'm a little drunk here Tell you the truth, I really don't care, ma And if you roll with me, I'm sure we'll get some stares, huh Show 'em watchu do with your little back there Tell them niggas how we gon' get crunk here Mark at 7/04/2004 04:18:00 PM -"Loving You" (Would you believe that uhh) When I first met you Tried my best to get you Mama wouldn't let you How can I forget you, girl? Always on my mind Got me writing rhymes Girl you are a dime Find me one more time Come and take my hand I'll take you for a dance Just give me this one chance Let me be your man Girl, it's been a while I see you've grown up now You got me sayin' "Wow" And this is how it's sounds Smiles from the past I knew it would last Yeah, we had a blast Damn, we grew up fast Flash to the day I used to come play Didn't care what some say Girl, I'm here to stay In the first grade On our first date Couldn't burst fate My heart's in check mate, ma Who knew you'd be the one Girl, we had some fun I wish it wasn't done Who cares about the sun, huh? Here comes Junior High Time seems to fly You're still by my side My feeling's just can't hide As we walk through the halls Strollin' through the malls Ignorin' all my calls Cuz, girl, you're my all That, you best believe You've got the best in me You're the only one I need Receive my 1-4-3's Can't believe you're real Girl you make me feel like High School, Here we come Other girls, there are none On my jock? there are some But you're my only one, ma With me through the years Witnessed all my tears Then you held me near Damn, I'm glad you're here, ma When push came to shove You kept me from them slugs Gave me all them hugs Offered all your love You're my baby boo Always stickin' through No matter what I do Damn, I'm lovin' you (And only you, ma) (Only you) (It's true) (And you best believe it) Mark at 6/27/2004 02:57:00 PM As you all know, it's the end of the school year And as we all go, we finna send our fool's tears But you gotta understand that this can't be a vision of sadness Get out and explore new lands 'cuz this is a mission of gladness New emotions and surprises Best believe you'd be wishin' that you had this But don't trip cuz yes indeed every one of y'all has this Movin' on up from a level obtained Choosin' what you wanna and revel a champaigne Cruisin' on up a little devil untamed But be careful cuz after the crunk, actions can never be explained Best leave your friends drunk, they don't need you to be entertained Because you gotta maintain a path of success Have fun, but restrain the excess Remember that you ain't gotta be the best dressed Don't worry about the labels, just make sure you progress Cuz in the end if you think about it, who're you really tryna impress? Get your shit straight and lay the foundation of your life Cuz it's checkmate if you approach the generations with a knife Leave the hesitations and enter the population Figure your situation and start your preperations Show some dedication before it turns into desperation Keep away from imitations before you get lost in isolation Exceed your expectations and put a stop to their conversations Finish your education cuz nobody finna send an invitation Become an inspiration and provide them admiration And upon your graduation, best believe it'll be one helluva celebration Mark at 6/11/2004 11:31:00 PM Foolish heart I got a foolish heart First sight I loved you from the start Gave you everything My love and my heart But when you had it girl You threw it back and tore it apart Foolish heart I got a foolish heart Shoulda known right from the start Never knowing you'd assume the part I wasn't smart I was blind I got a foolish heart First time we met girl, I was so sure Love at first sight Miss, I just couldn't ignore Type of girl I think about Every night I dream about Things to talk about When I would see you out and about So when the time came out I wasn't really really ready I turn around and poof you were pimpin' for me You saw me My eyes filled with uncertainty But I was just stuck To get to talk to you so privately It's crazy Lookin' at you got me lost In your eyes, wasn't lust If it was then I'd be checkin' at your thighs Cleanliness, deep inside is everything I saw They would find my fallen angel Girl, you're the way to heaven So I guess was just too young to be in love Facuated by hugs Addicted like I'm on drugs Led me on to think you was But you'd rather say "but" Never told me you had another guy for a bus So that sucks Kept trying, still on progression Giving hints for statements To lending with mis-intentions Like "I love you, but only as a dick-less friend" Why you gotta flirt, girl, if I don't really got a chance, huh? It wasn't really necessary All the games you played When you play with matches That's what happens with the flames Just like me Devestated and so clueless I was so sure There was no way I could refuse it Played me for a fool now I'm left with nothin' Love you then hit it with another Get for a moment Said I was over it But I still came back Hundred times you broke my heart Just like a heart attack Hundred times you said I love you Now the words just fade The lies keep bringing to the pain Just like pepper spray The side of you that used to keep me from the feeling of sadness Is now the vision that points everything, the reason for sadness And I can't bare the thought of seeing you with him Cuz when you're with him I feel a certain pain within Plus I'm thinkin' my anger really puts me off And my sense of real direction I'm just always off In my mind Mixed feelings bringing confusion Non-communicatable Like a foreign exchange student Damn The worst feeling's not to be loved By the person you believe that you were destined to be with Mark at 6/09/2004 08:29:00 PM -"Make It Shine" I remember The very first time I took a look into your eyes You were so shy, ma You had me trippin' and surprised A little deep down, ma I admit that so was I Couldn't let you see though You know how guys are with their pride So I tried to keep my stride But the feelings couldn't hide It was so strong, ma You had me staring for a while I got you glaring at me now Yeah the music's a little loud Tell me, mami, are you down? Can I take you from this crowd? And have a night, just you and me C'mon, baby, will you please Oh no, lady, ain't no tease I'ma take you to the keys And across the seven sea's Don't trip, ma, take your time We can dine for a while Share a line and a smile You're so fine, ain't no lie Like the stars in the sky Like the moonlight in the night Mami, we can make it shine When you're in my life, ma, things are so much better You always put a smile on my face, ain't no matter the weather And it just feels so right whenever we're together And when I first met her I knew I had to do everything in my power just to get her Send a couple flowers and a letter just to let her know how I feel But she looks like the type who's been through this before So I gotta improve me some more Cuz she's a girl of class The type everyone's after "Best back off because she'll leave your heart shattered" That's what they said to me, but it really didn't matter Cuz I knew in my heart that I really need to have her I knew what I wanted and I had to make her mine Ain't no money in my pocket so I had to make this rhyme Baby girl if you would just let me one time I know for a fact that we can make it shine That's how it was when I met her back then World full of hugs that never would end And it's you that I love and it never would end Best believe we're still here like it was back then Cuz, lady, you're the one that I want up in my life And it never ain't no fun when you're not up in my sight And you're the only one that can bring me to the light When I'm lost and confused, you get me through the night At what cost would it prove that you just might Be the girl of my life that would make things right Feeling so strong that I wanna hold you tight Had a dream one night, you dressed up all in white Walkin' down the aisle with a smile so bright It could only mean one thing, ma Let me set this down Give you this one now And uhh, baby girl Will you be my wife? Mark at 6/02/2004 09:53:00 PM Mami tell me this Would you give a kiss? If I wasn't the one to Be the one that buys you All them types of things That make your body bling Girl, it don't mean a thing Cuz I'm saving for a ring Two steps gone by And you still look fly Got me lookin' to the sky Sayin' "Oh my my" Can't believe you're the one to be the one I flaunt Girl, this ain't no front You're the only one I want To be here by my side Through any kind of tides Baby, tell me will you ride If i'm lost and need a guide? Girl, you got me open wide All these feelings can't hide Let me set down on one knee Will you be my bride? You're the only one I need Only person I would bleed for Rollin' up up my sleeve To provide you what you need And would you believe That I would never leave you Stick through the years And never give you tears Mark at 5/15/2004 11:57:00 PM Everytime I look into my reflection in the mirror I look into my eyes for answers to make everything clearer Cuz every day of my life is a mother fuckin' terror What are the chances that everything will be better? Just a homeless soul lookin' for a shelter See, I cry everytime I look into my life Cuz it seems like from day one nothing's ever gone right I've done my best to stay within the light Ain't never started no mother fucking fights And tried to keep everything all tight But it's all the same each and every night Thoughts in my head bring me nothing but fright I've been alone ever since my birth Been forced to grow up faster than rain would hit the earth All this pain done got me questioning my worth Not knowing my place and where I stand truly does hurt They have my back or so that's what I've done heard Telling me things like I could "soar just like a bird" And I got more than what it takes to make it in this world I take this in and it makes me wanna hurl Cuz I know I ain't perfect, but I try the best as I possibly could But something out there has been stopping me good Looking around me, I seem to get more misunderstood Cuz during my time of need, man, all alone I stood Nobody was around like I've been told they would See, I've pushed with my best And have never given anything less I've taken everything in the chest Damaged for a while and I need a fucking rest God damn, I'm a mother fucking mess My life is a test And it's filled with full of stress I'm goin' crazy, man, these thoughts are weighing a ton Carried myself on the field as fast as I could run It didn't matter if I had lost or won Cuz the game took away my stress and gave me some fun And I did it all just to make him proud like a father should a son But still, it wasn't enough and now I feel like I need a blunt So many questions and worries all in one I sit here and wonder if happiness could be within a gun Mark at 5/02/2004 11:12:00 PM Niggah, don't ever ask if I comprehend Don't you ever question my intelligence You don't ever want me prove my relavence Cuz my mind flows and it never ends I ain't preachin' cuz I ain't a reverend But my words should leave you in reverence See, I ain't the type to leave you with a broken lens But I may just lose it, tell me what you'd be hopin' then? Best wish that you got yourself some open friends That'll help you out and not just there for the clothing trends Like I said, I ain't nothin' violent But when I enter the room you'll notice how it gotten silent All these peoples done got their hostility heightened Cuz all of a sudden their women's smilez have been brightened Fists have tightened Ready to fight and Ruin what's been enlightend Cuz jealousy done got 'em freightened See, I ain't 'bouts to put a finger on 'em His miss done got her trigger on him And for that, I may just put something bigger on her Let her know how it is to be with a signal caller Yeah, you'd figure that I'd be some kind of baller Not at all, ma, cuz I lack the ice that make 'em wanna hollah But to them that don't care about that will surely follow Proving that not everybody in this world is shallow But true indeed That todays hearts are hollow Filled with greed Playin' for the money and the weed I pray for them honeys with their seed Each day rollin' for their addictive needs And not worried about who to feed How did we end up with this type of breed? Mark at 5/01/2004 05:06:00 PM -"2nite" Baby girl I need to see you tonight The time is right And I just might Be the one to hold you tight Underneath the moonlight These rhymes I write Are all coming from you And the things you do These feelings are true And I hoped you knew But you don't have a clue At what you put me through Teasin' me and we broke apart Leavin' me and you broke my heart Believe in me and we'll have a start At somethin' new without the darkness Let me spark this Love that's true and can't miss Will you let me be The one to bump and grind this? Blind is Love that shoves without kiss And what about this Heart of mine that can't quit? Lovin' you It hurts so much But uhh I gotta get through this But the truth is I need to Be with you tonight I need you girl Just once more Come back to me Don't walk that door Let me be The one you adore Might seem lost, I'm willing to explore Once more and Go back into time Back when You was still mine One of a kind Little mami tricked it Not a whole lotta drama Unlike them chick flicks She never gave a fuck about them slick whips Always around when I needed a quick dip Or a quick lick Smear no lipstick A dream, but realistic She's so exquisite And she never been too wrong Or gone too long Cheered me up with her cute thongs I find it hard just to move on Reminiscing all day long Gotta stay strong Gotta move along But uhh It hurts too much I gotta get through this But the truth is I need to Be with you tonight Mark at 4/18/2004 06:06:00 AM Yo, it's fucked when your boys turn their back on you And people you thought was friends tryna clap on you You see I've been through this pain Plus I've seen all the struggles Mama couldn't give me shit so I had to go and hustle Picture me up on the block every day tryna juggle I was skinny as fuck, but my mind gave me muscle Chillin' with the older crowd always got me into trouble When this child was needed, man, I was there up on the double All the tears I cried evaporated like a puddle Cuz nothin' is worth ballin' 'Til your closest says she loves you Cuz you're the only one she holds And she place no one above you Always have your back When people push and shove you To them haters I say "fuck you" Cuz theyz just a coward And if y'all die I'll send you fist before I ever send y'all flowers Bullets fly, man? Leave the loathe surrounding their hand I always reminisce and have these fucking things in my head Mark at 4/08/2004 05:49:00 PM This goes out to my future wife Even though I won't meet you until later in life You gotta know that I'll do everything I can just to treat you right Just show me you understand and shine my light Though I can't really promise that we'll have no fights But know one thing, it'll be you that I'll need each and every night And if you treat me like your only man then we just might Be together forever and never ever be out of my sight Cuz I'm afraid of losing your love if another man decides to bite Ma, all I really wanna do is hold you tight And do whatever ever it is you like Never been there? We'll take that flight Just to see your eyes glare, it's somethin' nice Caught in your stares, wifey, we'll see it twice I could really care less for the price With you I'm always on the rise And I wouldn't know what to do if someone were to take my prize And all I really know is that the very thought of you can keep me mesmerized This goes out to my future wife Can't believe you would choose to be by my side And for that we should cruise around the tides Because I don't want to ruin the feelings that I can't hide Ma, I thank you for giving all the love you have to give I promise that I would return your love for as long as I live And when all the lights are dim Please remember this Angels recite a hymn As we share December's kiss Another on new years eve and back around again You cured my fears here when I was bound for sin What I found has been A blessing for my heart A partner to my soul wrapped around a friend Damn, our relationship hasn't even started And already I'm wishing that it would never have to end Mark at 4/06/2004 04:52:00 PM
Spent a day by myself just figurin' What I could say to help what's lingerin' Too hard to tell and I can't put my finger in This problem that's going through my head Because of this, it's tears I done shed And it's my peoples that done fled After all the evil I done bled I still remember what's been said That I Could be something if I stuck through And I Wouldn't be hunting for luck too Cuz I Believe in one thing, not just the buck, fool And if You don't believe it then fuck you Damn, is this hip hop in me? Or is it hypocrisy? I don't believe in what's been told to me I do need for somebody to be holdin' me For I am uncouth I've been eyeing since my young youth People dying for the wrong truth And my tongue shoots Nothin' but the truest of my experiences And there's no tellin' of my next appearances Cuz I'm always living and extending my own distances I want to be somewhere else than the place that I stand Physically and mentally do you understand? As I look into my hands I walk into a land Where nothing is planned Gotta adjust and learn to be a man Mark at 4/06/2004 04:03:00 PM
It's almost summer time... gotta put them frowns away cuz it's time to smile, ya feel? people just gotta learn to look past that shit... just be happy and enjoy life. A look through this ghetto and you see a bunch of crimes And if you see a white couple then you know you gotta rob 'em Shit, I'm just jokin' Oh, am I really? Cuz it's summertime, man, and you know it gets silly Back to the topic Fuck your worries, don't care You only got one life so live it like a dare You ain't goin' nowhere If you scared to be real Walk around with a smile, ain't afraid to get killed See young little kids just stressin' too much Listen You still young Stay happy Stay tough Young ones fall in love as easy as can be You don't need love yet so fuck the 1-4-3 Love is blind so don't get stuck in the trap Cuz once your heart is given then it ain't comin' back Forget the drama Show love to your mama Stay happy, niggah Save the problems for another time-ah Ok, your life is stuck in such miserable pain Seems like the world is against you and it's driving you insane Don't sweat it, man Yo, you gotta stay strong Just think about the people that loved you all along Sometimes you never know who's watching your back It's great to get a smile when you don't even ask Stay real to your people Stay real to your fam And I know sometimes we gotta make our own stand Life is meant to be shit Make you feel out of place But it always feels good to have a smile on your face Look we Got school We got troubles all apart The streets are hard And your life is always dark Your family is pissed off Friends you can't trust Love's a fucking bitch And your hopes start to bust But after the dark the sun comes in a hurry Life's too short Stay happy Don't worry Mark at 4/06/2004 11:57:00 AM
Every day we're faced With decisions that changes Our visions and ways we Live, strivin' to reach the other places And it's all the same with all the other races We all walk the earth, but all with different paces And it just amazes Me, that all we do is blaze and Not give a fuck with how we live our days and Be all enraged at How we're all enslaved in This life that we all paved ourselves Workin' hard every day cuz every hour sells Gettin' mad at the world everytime that ours fails Not knowin' what to do so most of us just bail It's a sad little tale But all y'all know it's true And what cha gonna do When all your skies are blue? Would you Stick up for your crew Or drink up a brew Start acting like a fool Miss a day of school Plottin' for the jewels What's hotter than them shoes? Not tryna change what you beat your drum to But be careful what you choose Cuz it's hurtful when you lose Mark at 4/06/2004 11:18:00 AM
Now, sweet young ladies Please listen to my words Forget what people think Just soar like a bird The world's unfair Yeah, I know it's hard Believe in yourself And only trust in god Along the path Some guy will try to hurt ya They ain't all nice No matter how they flirt ya Forget about impressions Beauty is all a lie The only thing I'm worried Is the tear in your eye Now picture this A young lady getting hit Living her life like it ain't worth shit Falling in love with the wrong type of people Got tricked with hugs from thugs and all of their evil Easily fueled by the guys all around her Not knowing all they want to do is try to pound her Thinkin' she's worthless She starts to miss school Run away from home Cuz her family abuses It's hard to imagine what's going through her mind Every day of her life She cuts another line Cryin' tears at night Wishin' life would change Knowing her plot would never be the same Such a sweet young lady But confused in this world She looks like a woman But still a little girl Why? I hurt for for the ladies that live this kind of life And I hope one day you'll be somebody's wife Mark at 4/06/2004 10:44:00 AM "Gotta let it burn" And it's done been burnt Burnt to a crisp and never to return Cuz I done learned What my heart yearned Was none of her concern All the pain that I earned It's a shame, now it's my turn To make my claim Let y'all know my name Not for the fame But to set a frame For the game Set to be played From the previous flames Of her devious ways And I may just stray From what she is to me Cuz it's the past and it's history It didn't last and her feelings were a mystery I see no reason to stay with this misery Mark at 4/04/2004 04:47:00 PM Latest changes have left me wondering who I am Greater wages have kept me plundering through the bend Weather rages have swept me, pondering at "who am I to them?" And when It comes around to it in the end Who will hum the sounds of care as a friend? And when I'm broken down and need a lend Who will hope and frown for me and send Love and understanding as I bleed and rend? Shove greed and tend To my pleads and then Stick around to see me blend My flows and talents I try to extend And no you haven't seen me contend Cuz it's not the image I try to depend I ain't tryna pretend It's not what I intend I'd be happier with true friends Than having your amend Cuz I remember it's me you tried to descend So quit tryna befriend I done seen these trends Leaving me scarred and need to mend Mark at 3/31/2004 11:31:00 PM A boy does what he wants, a man does what he needs Why do I stay with feelings that haunt and make me fall to my knees? Is it really what I want? Will someone answer me please? Because it's tearing me apart and I don't know what to believe What's truly in my heart? I see an ignition, but no key So where do I start? Beginning to think it's all just a tease And to tell you the truth, I've done had enough of these Little games you play, call it whatever you feel But it's every day I say that this I could really deal And as I lay I stray from the world and what is truly real Damaged myself with these thoughts and I'm hungry for a meal Just a child needing to be fed so a man would later reveal Mark at 3/30/2004 11:26:00 PM Hearin' a call as I walk through the halls of SLZ Leanin' on the wall, standin' tall, this figure be tellin' me That I have open doors and for sure a lot of oppurtunities Heard all this before from the people that be foolin' me Seein' my potential is essential to their plans of felonies And who these cats be thinkin' that they be schoolin' me? Probably the same people that be lovin' these Tree's that you puff and weez Just to get a little sense of what's heavenly Would someone help me please? Everywhere I go there's always somebody temptin' me And it's only a matter of time that my mind start's failin' me Cuz I know that I can't be that strong for that long So I compose a song of what's wrong Wouldn't call it a song But a flow cuz that's where I belong Knew I had this talent in me all along Nothing better helps me gather my thoughts Kept me in laughter when I've lost And helps me explain all the bullshit I've been tossed Maintain all the emotions I have crossed Please contain all of your applause I ain't perfect, I have flaws I'm just doin' my best to stay within' these laws Showin' my chest, I have no reason to withdraw Finna make sure when I'm done that I leave you people in awe Verse two What's worse than the truth? I've been cursed as a youth Vision's been a blur ever since my first tooth Mission's too absurd just to please my own crew Spending more than a third just to match their own shoe Wear it for a week then snatch another new And from that day through I can say that there's only one thing that I knew That living the life of others was never in my view Going back into time because it's easy for me to Back to the days of summer with the sky so blue Thought I had it so hot that I was generating the flu Had my popularity and wasn't finished elevating it too Was not your rarity finding me biting off more than I could chew And to those that actually cared, Andrez was of the few That actually knew what I could do And he worked so hard just to prove That my new found groove was not a smart move So I try to improve and work hard to remove All the habits of sin that has settled within And because of him I ain't aimin' for your chin Can't say I've never been And I ain't a reverend But thanks to all my friends All the love that they send Plus the pad and my pen That my life, I would never try to end Yeah, I'm thinkin' of how I should be startin' this All I know is that I put all my heart into it Every last feeling I done had for this miss Tears from the past got me missin' how I could be workin' it No use on crying because I know it's done and over with Yeah, we done fell apart, but I gotta stay strong and shoulder it Can't say I ain't thinkin' of one more chance just to hold her in My arms, keepin' her sheltered and away from all the harm Feelin' the warmth of her palm on mine was another level of calm Laughin' because it was a little funny to some The type of person that I had become But I don't care what they think cuz I know the beat to my drum And only I alone truly knows where the hell I'm coming from When it's all said and done I can never compare myself to none Don't care if you label me a pun Your words can't rattle me, son All the battles I done won I ain't doin' this for fun And I've only just begun I've taken you from the present to the past and back Don't be mistaken, it's nothing pleasant and that's a fact My worst hasn't been mentioned and I prefer to keep it black My thirst has intentions to provide me with what I lack I'll burst with inventions of rhymez to keep it stacked And immersed on a page thrown in a cage and under wraps As I converse about them days I overwhelm my gauge I traverse across a fit of rage I don't want to engage I ain't nothin' violent, naw, I don't want that in my base It's just a disgrace When you feel like you be losing your space And you feel like you should be gone without a trace But then you sit and think and remember your place You can't quit, you're the link and cannot be replaced Haters won't blink cuz it's you that they want to erase Wishing for your downfall, they deserve a little chase So I pick myself up with a different flavor in my taste It's a shame to waste the true value of an ace So take what I say and remember your grace Take your time in this race and set up your pace I'll take my stance with my hands rested on my waist As I end this verse with a smile up on my face Mark at 3/27/2004 09:27:00 PM
Have you ever tried hard just to make your family proud? So many ways, but you can't find how That's how I feel and it ain't going away It's the same damn shit that I get every day Have you ever tried hard just to make it on your own? To figure how you'd feel when you're being alone Still living at home Still writing these rhymes It's the same damned life that I wish that wasn't mine Every single time that I try it ain't never any good Cuz no matter what I do I'ma still be in this hood When your life is feeling down and you don't know what to do Just chill, little homie, cuz you got your fucking crew Just open your ears Here Take some advice If you got the chance to take it then don't think twice Never knowing your options, getting kicked to the ground Seems like it always happens when I'm feeling down I try living good, but no one understands Listening to Nas' tracks, "I believe I can" As a kid, I'm a young man going through pain Tryin' to make a change, but things are still the same We redeem and it seems that I can't grab my dream Expecting things to go right, but it's all to the mean One things for sure, I don't do this for the hate But if you talk stills, my fists will communicate Y'all disrespect when the kid is meant to be Pain and agony It can't get done in a hurry It's all stress, but in time I will progress Stay fresh and clean up all the badness Care less, but this road is a hard journey We just workin' to get there cuz we're all worthy The future ain't thrilly, but the person really hurts No matter what we do, we gotta make this work Sometimes when I feel like I'm destined for the top But the middle man posts and my dreams, they always drops For the love of hip hop Man I'm hangin' in this game But the game got me twisted, man, I'm bangin' for the fame Everybody knows my name But who really cares? Fuck the world, let everybody hear Sometimes I get scared Scared to try Cuz sometimes little man just pushin' to die Have you ever cried for the things you try most? Everytime you try to win, you never come close One week I'm taking blows One week I'm living to find one Break them out hustlin' for nickel and dimes One week I'm bustin' mines One week I'm just chillin' One week I'm all stout on the streets as a villain One week I does a killin' One week I just cry One week is my girl Want life to just die Mark at 3/27/2004 08:55:00 AM
One day at a time I see pain passing by Feelin' tears on them girls Everytime they would cry I'm always hear to listen to my peoples troubles But when I try to listen, the burden is doubled Getting so behind so I'm down from the rest Always getting pushed cuz I gotta be the best If I tried to run away and don't look at the past If I was to run away and life didn't last But the love that I had Thought about it twice Ain't no more use to tryin' to be nice So many questions and worries all in one I wonder if happiness could be within a gun The shoulda, woulda, coulda's And the maybe's and the gotta's Show me that I understand everything I wanna So I'm sitting down thinkin' of where I lie The words in my head is to live or to die My life ain't special, shit, it ain't close Thrill's every day, care and love notes Handlin' my shit, almost 17 years Lived my life with death, overcame my fears I started as nobody Still not a somebody And if you wanna take my life, let's go, buddy I don't fear death, but I ask for that Will I still be known for the rhymez I spit? Life is full of shit But then you gotta bare This life you live could be lost within a stare Always wondered, which people I can trust Cuz the world doesn't care They wish death on us And when I rest my soul And my heart goes cold Will my voice still live to tell the things that are told? Mark at 3/27/2004 08:54:00 AM Ok, honey listen My heart is always spittin' Now everytime we part it's you I'm always missin' I love the glisten in your eyes, it's just beautiful My life is hard, never know who be foolin' you So I wanna straighten' up and learn my number Because everytime I breathe I miss them days of summer Chillin' in the park Chillin' on the block Chillin' at your house til lights after dark Shhhh With you, my worries gone Lay you on the lawn Wrestlin', huggin', just kissin' in the storm And every single morn I reach to my side Hold you close to my heart Just cuz it feels right And that There can never ever be another woman That I'll love so much That my head is always spinnin' I'ma take you swimmin' Just to show you how I drown It's one of many ways just to show you that I'm down Mark at 3/26/2004 08:24:00 PM
It's hard to love when you got so much on your mind I'm livin' on the grind Not like them people livin' fine I gotta get mine So I gotta stay focus This is real life and there ain't no hocus pocus Determined to make something big out of rap I do this shit alone cuz I'm always like that I love all my people and I wanna make them proud Everyday I spit another rhyme just to rock the crowd My homeboys always pushin' me to be the best I ain't never done drugs Probably the reason why I'm always stressed Sometimes I want to quit And find someone to hug But most girls don't want a man and lookin' for a thug So theres no room for love in this life of time And I always care for my folks lives before mine Just waiting for the day that I find that girl That judge me for my love and not my world I've fallen in love a couple times, maybe less But from my girls view, I ain't worth the stress I ain't a thug, but all about love Not about doin' drugs And never shootin' slugs I gotta heart too like everybody else But the things that I feel ain't no one ever felt I try to be a gentlemen and live life good But speakin' real terms I'm the realest in the hood It hurts me to see my love once fall down I've sacrificed so much, I can't believe I'm still around But you better understand my life and point of view Why try and act hard when you'd get your ass killed? You're the only thing that puts me on Plus my life has been hard, you can feel it in my songs Every word that I spit is straight from my heart And I apologize, girl, if we end up all apart Don't always be fooled by the way that I speak Don't be fooled by the things that I pull every week I know it's hard and I'm lost inside Don't judge the way I am, I'm just tryin' to get by Never seen through the eyes of a soldier ride Where every single day is another bloody fight Been told by others, you ain't nothin' but trash Everytime you tell people your dreams, they just laugh I've been lived through the fact that a gun ain't survival Everytime you're mom asks you say you live and find 'em Casts with the love of protecting your people By any means necessary even through evil Botherin' folks to put food in your mouth Cuz wealth and checks don't really help you out Never had my real father to show me I'm a man So tell me this girl, can you love who I am? Mark at 3/26/2004 08:22:00 PM Here I am Sitting here Contemplating my past Hesitating on chance To elevating my stance Terminating my trance That's fascinating my cache Initiating a clash Navigating the lance Imitating the slash Infiltrating the stab Penetrating my calf Seperating the gash Conjurating a splash Lacerating the rash And decorating my mass Hibernating the mad Relocating the sad Confiscating the bad Formulating a scab Recreating the span Estimating my hand Compensating my cash To celebrating a laugh Animating a dance Radiating a flash Illustrating my plan By modulating a blast Stimulating my land Saturating the pad And generating a rap To dedicating this trash To educating the vast And liberating the last Mark at 3/25/2004 07:32:00 PM
My mind is blank and I'm feeling so empty I have no reason to care so nigga don't tempt me Just help me understand and tell me How to be a man and lend me a hand Because I can't stand living without a plan All the shit I've been through where any other woulda ran But I'm still here because I know that I can Hold my own land Stay strong How can something go from right to wrong? Feel like I've been in this fight too long Problems in my face, but I still move on To better things and better dreams Just to finish the race for my team And it seems that it consists of me alone As I resist the voices in my dome I still insist to be known For the very things that I have shown Through my many expressions But it's still just small a section To a piece of my collection Of gathered thoughts throughout the years And experiences have given me more fears Of what else might come and I sit here in tears Not really wanting to change gears Because I found something I want to hold near But why is it so cold in here? "It's not what you need" is what I'm told to hear I don't want to believe as I fold to my peers Once again, I find myself on a road to nowhere Not even given a map and showed to go where? No clue to what's there As I give a blank stare I realize that I've been living life without a reason Just living and breathing to get through the seasons No motivation or inspiration to help me as I'm bleedin' So I wander through life unsure of where it's leadin' Writing rhymez like these that you people be readin' Mark at 3/25/2004 05:52:00 PM
Can't deny that I've pushed with my best But as time passes I think that I gotta put this to rest Cuz as far as I could see, we ain't passing the test Wanted way more, but I recieved nothing but less And most of the time I was trippin' all stressed Found myself limpin' and all messed Been doin' some thinkin' and I confess That I probably ain't winning your contest This is what my mind is sayin' I guess But I feel something different in my chest "You are the goal to my quest" Mark at 3/25/2004 05:51:00 PM
Lost and confused in the world of uncertainty At what cost would it prove that this girl could find relief in me? Long thoughts overdue of the words in mind and definitely It's around time that I take off the blinds and find That this ain't no time to cry and stop wondering why And start thundering by the clouds and fly Through the crowds listening to the sounds up high And be proud of what she's been telling me aloud and try To figure out that what she says ain't no fucking lie Still, some thoughts linger pulling the negativity trigger Gotta leave that behind and think of something bigger Have to believe that she the kind that'll pull through the thicker of the thickest Because it's her that I need and want in the ways of the quickest With her I feel a surge of prominence and I could deliver All the things she urge with dominance making her body wither With love and lust given to me from the heavens above Once been shoved and dubbed as love that's worn Left behind in the dust to rust as a gust of wind left me torn And unjust on the feelings I trust and must pull out the thorn That's dug itself inside my paw All the hugs all snug that I saw Got me bugged reaching for the slug to plug my jaw Felt like I was drug across the rug like it was the final straw But once more I find myself in awe Thinking of what's in store if we could fix all the flaws That slowly tore us apart and made me throw away my heart What if we were to start all over and played it smart Moreover I can tell that our feelings for eachother are off the charts And there's no feeling too strong that I could not express without giving you a clue Of my best intentions and hopefully I'm making a strong impression of what is true Tried to hide it from your latest relation knowing what we once had was through But I'ma come out front with no hesitation, obviously not out of the blue I would not rather have no other than the person that is you Mark at 3/25/2004 05:48:00 PM
If you want another chance then you gotta walk my pace Seein' you with another man done destroyed all my taste Just wanted some romance and many more of them days But uhh, you stood up and ran, all your clothes in your case That shit I couldn't stand, done made me hella wanna blaze And uhh, I'm not quite sure I can go back to that phase Cuz uhh, it hurt real bad when that land hit my fucking face But uhh, never had the plan to show anybody my rage And at a glance, my image didn't fully represent my age I admit I was sad But I had no reason to be mad Cuz from the start, I was confused on what we had And you ignored all my desires to completely understand Your feelings, emotions, hesitations and all So naturally our dealings went into a slow duration erosion and all Found me peeling myself off the elevation wall After my explosion of frustration and all That you best believe Don't care what the rest believe But I think it's a little test we need Which has already passed and you didn't succeed You done took a dash for yourself and showed nothin' but greed Ain't tryin' to lash out and call what you did a selfish deed But that's all in the past so tell me why should I bleed For something not certain to last and no clue to where it would lead Now if you really want me, ma You gotta show me something, ma And you have to know one thing, ma That the first sign you of playing me, ma You could expect the end of it, ma Do you comprehend this, huh? Mark at 3/25/2004 05:47:00 PM Staring at the two that's forcing me to make a decision Thinking of who would be true to holding the plans to my mission Paired hands is steadily what I have envisioned Through the many years of my sad and lonely past Wishing I could have only had a way to have made things last All them tears wasn't because I was mad, but frustrated at how fast Things have slowly changed and crashed and has left me with a cast On my heart which felt a little harsh but the love it felt could not surpass The actions of affectionless mis-directions which was contrast To just a fraction of her attraction to my reactions Of seemingly lost satisfaction and slowly became a distraction To what I have really and truly desired I really and truly have no clue to what I have had admired But all I knew is that we could have taken things higher To better things and better dreams with angels in the choir And away from things that would melt it in the fire That would force the feelings that we felt to retire But something was dealt and I was called a liar And questioned my ways and views that I put through the wire But let me tell you this, I could care less for the fashion of my attire And it's not the material things that I set my mind to require But your attention and affection is what I truly desire to acquire Mark at 3/21/2004 02:14:00 PM Let me take this time And rhyme About this step father of mine Who showed me signs And lectured lines Whenever I fell into crimes Sheltered me with a home Always treated me as his own Protected me like a dog would his bone So very thankful for all the love that he's shown And to him goes everything I owe He's been the brightest star in my sky And does nothing better than shine My way And lead me back To the path That I've so often strayed And of all them days Man, there's so much I can say Like this one day When he lowered my voice to a cat's meow "Can you hear me now? Son, you gotta learn, let me show you how" Not sayin' that he's violent or strict But really more like a silent gift That was given to me when my ma had done left She put me through so much that every night I wept Understood where I came from so his name I kept I'm not his real son, he and I done knew that But he treats me like one, compromise for what we lack Like father, like son, you best believe that Mark at 3/20/2004 07:30:00 PM
Listen to this one time Yo, it's fLipZsTayALz ready to emerge into the game On the verge of hitting fame Send that urge to your dame Sorry, cuz I ain't tryna splurge onto your flame But it's just the little surge that I bring Not tryna encourage your sweet thing But she seem ready to engage the jungle king Had to back off incase she took a swing Enough of that I'm just makin' sure that the timingz right And the rhymez are tight Gonna climb the heights Ignoring the crimez and fightz Just so I could see that shining light Y'all feel me, right? Mark at 3/20/2004 07:28:00 PM
Been lost all care Man, tryna find my place Tryna be somebody but they always laugh up in my face Let's cut it to the chase Let's talk about my past Let's talk about the minutes that I ain't never getting back For my life is trapped Don't ever listen Otherwise Everybody in this world You know they be talkin' Always be tellin' lies Who do I despise In this little life of mine? I despise myself for being stupidly blind Anytime you'll find Nobody really cares when you're down So everytime I'm stressed I never make a sound Keep my head to ground And open up my ears Ain't afraid of lies Cuz it's the truth that we fear Never got no guns near Always ready to die Cuz my only enemy Is the one that be living inside Papa told me My life would be Like a fairy tale Guess he was wrong cuz all I see is a living hell Fuck this life Ain't no sense in living on, G Fuck this life Ain't no sense in going on, G The world around us Claiming and tricking with chances But still I got questions never getting any answers Blood, I'm tired of life's confusing little dances Never really knowin' But I guess it's time My time to get goin' But yo Yo I'm always on a move But I'm always at the same spot It's like I want to drop Cuz I hate what I got A place in my heart isn't beating anymore A place with understanding is what I'm goin' for Mark at 3/20/2004 07:27:00 PM
Life is like a game Everybody gotta play it And when the game is over Ain't nobody gon' say it When every passing second is my question inside If the day came by And I die Would they cry? Cuz I'm tired of all these lies Who's really by your side I survived each day with no means of getting high Kinda funny ain't it? All the shit we go through Sometimes the drug and crew Look like the top two Seems like I need to escape From this world From my mind From my friends And even that girl Cuz believe it or not I done lived it all From this ghetto life I'm part Most people wantin' to hit me, waiting for that call Shots when it's dark Stroll alone through the park Nobody in my sights So my mind flash them memories From every day fights Always knew life was hard But not for this long Cuz every day is harder If all I do is wrong And sometimes I don't even know What the fuck to do Except sit here in tears thinkin' how this shit blew Got problems at home Always had trouble with the law I got violence outside And I dream to make it start Never thought one person could make it go away With her smile so bright, it'd always brighten up my day Kinda shameful that it's her that keeps me sane Yet the same person that can make me go insane How can someone you love bring so much pain? Mark at 3/20/2004 07:26:00 PM
In life I hope and strive I make a steady pride But as days pass by I kept staying alive And when I lay to die I keep tellin' y'all my story And please don't cry When I'm murdered and buried And does the world worry? Cuz my life ain't a concern Unafraid to die I'm just waiting for my turn The pain is like a burn The scar will never go And it's hard nowadays To watch a child grow Things they'll never know And things they never heard Cuz how can you trust If no one takes your word? So I soar like the birds And keep on hopin' And I threw away my heart So it'll never get broken The doors already open Just waiting for my soul Each step'll take it closer See the darkness as it falls My eyes start to ball And I can't go on I just hope they know my name When all the pain is gone Mark at 3/20/2004 07:25:00 PM
You could call this the end You could call this goodbye Cuz what's the point of life If you gotta get high? Alone I hurt and cry When I'm plotting in my cell Can't wait til I die See me rot and diggin' in One day they'll hear my tale With my life long struggles Said, every day is me Is another sign of trouble I ain't no stunt double I'm one of a kind And if you think life is easy Then, son, you must be blind Always promised to find My road to happiness But reality cursed My life with full of stress And I push with my best My soul and all my heart But what do you do When you lose before you start? And it seems I always part With the people I love At the end of the year They turn wraps and hugs Bunch of faceless thugs Anyone of them could tell Cuz of my backstabbing friend Spent christmas in jail Mark at 3/20/2004 07:19:00 PM How can I live on Without knowin' this girl Vivan For the longest and I've been on The strongest with her on My case and the ways I spend my days Flashed them rays to show me through the maze And I'm amazed at how her insight pays Off, during my rough and worst times "Stay tough" be her first lines Before giving me a piece of her mind She really and truly is one of a kind The loveliest of all of mah Closest friends And I would never hope it ends Mark at 3/10/2004 11:21:00 PM
Done met her doin' the vol-un-tah-reh (Voluntary) Oh my, what a sight Would like to know her more per-so-nah-leh (Personally) Caught my attention with more than the phys-e-cah-leh (Physically) Nice eyes and low rise Showin' other guys no thighs Got me askin' why she ain't mine Take my time and study my lines In my eyes she a dime Ain't no crime in dreamin' somethin' fine And I hope that she be noticin' my style Doin' little things to show what's in my files Of thoughts, dreams and other little things Of me and her taking in what life brings Smile here and there, a light grin Everytime she catch me stare, it's lightning But in a lot of ways, a bit frightening Cuz I have no clue how I seem To her So I let out a light scream Yes indeed My thoughts tend to travel at full speed It's a blur Tap the breaks as I hit the curve Knowing for sure That this right hurr (Here) Must be driven slowly But I can't help thinking how it might be For us to be together as I hold her tightly Mark at 3/10/2004 10:51:00 PM I'm only as strong as the woman behind me No one there yet, but I'm hoping she could find me And love me for the person that I am Understand that I'm not like none of them Take my hand and comprehend The many things I try to apprehend Through rough times and worst times I'm hoping she would still have me then Through my crimes and still be mine As I rhyme through these lines And I find that she shines The path that I dream Day and night just like a steady stream That be flowing down the streets My views and hers meets What truth and care brings To youth and share hymns That soothes the fair kings Who rule the lands here And who can stand here All alone with no fear? Not me Gotta have her to hold near All the things I hold dear Never tried to show tears Of loneliness Cuz I know around the bend is happiness I admit I have doubts and I confess That I shout in distress For a way out of this mess As I pound on my chest The sounds of my best Rounds of my breath Bound to this test Of strength and humanity You can't imagine the love you have in me It's length compares to insanity So I wait for the day you would run into me Mark at 3/07/2004 01:11:00 AM How could it be That women to me Be the way that they are Dreamin' of things from afar But when reality darts You see them break right from the start And that's what I hate from my part That I continue to share what's in my heart After showing no care for what I've done I still stare at what could have been won But it's a battle I done lost so many times Shook up and rattled as I rhyme these lines And when I'm back on my feet shinin' mines The thoughts of the past climbs my mind Moments like these got me runnin' wild From the fears that got me stunnin' while Reachin' for the cross that be on me now Actions leading me to be army bound It's crazy what women can do So many things I've done that I can't undo But I can't say that none of them be untrue Because, baby girl, I'm still missin' you Mark at 2/26/2004 10:28:00 PM I'm still hurt and healin' Like a bird that's injured Unable to take flight off this world he livin' But I still have feelin's For that girl he kissin' And I'ma hurl just listenin' To the things they dreamin' Plottin' and schemin' About the life they buildin' And his dreams of a wife that she be in Promisin' her cars that she can put her car keys in God damn I'm sick of bein' The one who's left to thinkin' Sittin' here and figurin' What kinda life we'd have if I woulda stopped the sinnin' Things that I done did done got me singin' About the life that I woulda been livin' And I'm just wishin' That my words woulda been believed in So I would be the one to be relievin' Every inch of your skin and still be in Your life that I wouldn't be leavin' Mark at 2/15/2004 10:08:00 AM -"Reality" Now follow me into the mystics See the world through my eyes and realize how deep shit gets Inner peace is what I've yet and have to find But it's hard living in the battlefield of the mind It's a war, but what are we fighting for? The only cause is to be able to get our point across So we argue and debate, who's weak and who's great Leaving us in a negative state Searching and hoping for somebody to relate Praying we'll meet our soulmates on the path we take Taking out frustrations with allegations Waiting to be given a better situation Patience is a virtue You need to be kind, even to the people tryin' to hurt you 'Cuz who knows what friends you'll still have by tomorrow Sometimes you gotta run away to see who follows Todays hearts are hollow Filled with greed Teens you could call friends driven by weed Ambition is there, but nobody's given a care We're too busy with picking the right clothes to wear I know it's not fair, but that's the way the world works I guess we just like to get hurt It's honey's and women and money and winnin' And we need to fix this world while we're still livin' People got so many sides They can act kind, but half the time that's a lie It's about material things, reputations Anything for a popularity elevation Give me a break, man, what's so great About tryin' to act down every minute that you're awake? 'Cuz I've been there and gone down that road I know how that goes and is it worth it? No So don't change for anybody, be real Something on your mind then say what you truly feel People gon' hate, you can't help that Being fakes just taking the bait in their trap You gotta fight back Show 'em what you got Show 'em that you're not another fake thinkin' you're hot But whatever you do You gotta stay true Don't let the evil and hate take you too Why you gotta hate on me for tryna do what I love? Is it because the only thing you got is some drugs? You gotta fit in You gotta live in a herd And if a kid is different then you gotta kick him to the curb You don't even know yourself, son! What do you need? What makes you happy? Well at least I know mine It's just like what Andrez done said, "We're killing our own kind." I'ma say this simple and plain Don't let the corruption get into your brain This isn't a game This is real life Mark at 2/09/2004 12:49:00 PM
-"My Confession" And now, a story of romance Sparked by a slow dance And how it came to be that my heart is in your hands The first time I caught a glimpse of your eyes I knew fate was to make you mine I approached you At that time we both knew In my eyes you were a girl I had to become close to I was totally drawn by your charm An unspoken bond and the feelings were so strong How do I proceed? You didn't even know me All that I could really do is take things slowly All shy with beautiful eyes Whenever you walk by My lonely heart cries Eternally forever Every part of me sayin' that I will never find better I was born to give you my everlasting affection You gotta know that I love you This is my confession An angel was sent to me from the heavens above And now I understand the very definition of love From kissin' and hugs to show you I'm commitin' to us You need so much, I only hope I'm giving enough I'm promisin' our passion would be prominent You're positive on a planet where negativity is dominant Destiny will take us through the crossroads To the picket fence home that both of our hearts know We'll journey to a life that everybody wanna live A couple of days at the beach to get away from the kids A million dollar crib With cooks and maids So you don't have to lift a finger for the rest of your days I dedicate myself to you forever And my soul is tellin' me that I will never find better So as we begin Trust grows within' You gotta know that I love you This is my confession With every heartbeat My love gets more deep I only hope that you've got the same feelings towards me Damn, love's never felt so real And I believe that it's something we truly both feel The things you wear And your beautiful hair A couple of things why no other girl can compare I gotta stop and stare I need to be with you Leavin' you is something you will never see me do I kiss your lips and feel the mystic bliss If there is real love out there, well, this is it Lookin' into your eyes, I'm lucky to be alive I vow that I'll be with you 'til the day that I die That's no lie God's taught me a lesson When it comes to love, you can't stop what's destined And as I tell you this I hope you get the message I love you This is my confession Mark at 2/09/2004 12:39:00 PM
-"Life is good" I come home and I've been through a rough day I must say it really feels good just to lay Me and stress partin' ways when Marvin Gaye starts to play In the dark I pray My love for music is hard to say Thank you, God, for giving me white clouds and parting grays Music calms all my rage The problems fade It gets me through my longest days And when the pain starts getting to me I set to my knees And ask God to listen to me They joy over-shadows the misery It's better than when they send an innocent prisoner free I'm on a mission to be not another fish in the sea But givin' a free showin' of what's livin' in me It's the essence of bliss A lesson of wit A present, a gift That'll make you wanna sit and reminisce Pleasure with no fee I never and won't leave Just let me slowly set your soul free Like something nice should I'd write all night if I could But my life is good And when the hating is found I pray God'll lay me down Take away the frowns And hope love'll stay around 'Cuz now I need it more than ever Life is so much better When you and your friends are together I don't care about the ice charms Or girls in tight white thongs To be able to put my feelings on a pad Is the greatest number one source of healing that I have It's not about the money, but the love of the art Rhymes pump and flow like blood in a heart And from the start I wanted to be real in a way That people listenin' would really feel what I say This lyrical writing is something I've grown to love It's dedicated to the one who's watching me from above Sometimes it's harder than ice and wood But give me a smile And my life is good And when I close my eyes My open mind goes and finds Notes and rhymes and a flow design The rawest lines Shown with A poetical gift I know it don't get no better than this I got by doin' what I had to do Now it's all magical, my lord, much gratitude I choose not to bring the troubles near It's brought enough tears The past couple of years And I've had it up to here I gotta move on Devil tryin' to get to me, but I'm too strong I use songs to get into a zone For comin' into my own With a pen is where I feel at home It's like a release When I write, I'm at peace Gettin' hyped on a beat For seven nights of the week As I pull over my hood I realize That my life is good Mark at 2/09/2004 12:27:00 PM
-"Loneliness" 5:25 Wake up Wipe my eyes Take a deep sigh Get outta the covers and rise Another day Push play to ease the pain Gotta have the music to keep me sane Thinkin' of past times When the world was mine Good friends weren't something that I had to find But now times have changed, everything's reversed MY so called "dawgs" have left me to hurt I stay busy, tryin' to keep occupied But tears can't help, but fill my eyes They used to call everyday just to say "Hi" But now I page them and can't even get a reply Why? Did I do something wrong? What happened now suddenly I don't belong? I'm gonna have to move on Gotta get them out of my head Guess I was the only one tryin' to be a true friend Startin' to see slowly That my one wish is only for somebody to hold me The world would be so much better without the lies I opened my mouth wide And gave an outcry God please I need somebody to be with me Through ups and downs and in between I can't imagine goin' through life without a partner Being alone makes the rough times harder It can't be like this I ain't got a lot of money But it shouldn't matter, 'cuz friends are priceless I write this for all y'all sittin' in bed Don't let the frustration get into your head I know it's hard, but you gotta keep pushin' If you ain't found a true friend then you gotta keep lookin' And don't forget you've got a friend in god And he'll forever see you for what you are Beginning to see signs That the only way I can survive is through these lines So much love to give But when there's no one there to give it to You feel so much pain within I know they never meant to hurt me But not keepin' in touch makes me feel not worthy I'm still here waitin' for your call Sittin' here by the phone, but it ain't ringin' at all So what's the deal? Do me a favor and be real We were always able to say what we feel It's one thing to lose touch But it's totally another to not say a thing for two months It's been too long Tell me what's wrong How can you all of a sudden be gone? Is it really that hard to pick up and dial? I'd give it my all, just to see you smile Mark at 2/09/2004 12:15:00 PM
-"Childhood" Why did this happen to me? What did I ever do? I can't imagine any sadder thing to put a kid through When will the pain go away? When will night turn into day? It's all gray God, please answer me when I pray I recall growin' up wonderin' why Dad would tell me all these lies And at nights he would secretly cry Too young to understand the torture inside his mind Throwin' stones Mad from growin' up alone 5'oclock rolled around, but my Ma didn't come home She was always there And I knew she always cared But it was damagin' knowin' that I'd grow up family impaired 'Cuz my Ma had an affair The devil got in her ears Lucifer steered her to something she feared And after all that lovin' and lustin' It abruptly corrupted I knew that man couldn't be trusted He took her to a nice little cruise Changed her ways and views And a child they went on to produce What I went through got me so confused If you were here I'd rip every single inch off your skin Tear you limb from limb And make sure you don't destroy any normal family again I can't forget it 'Cuz I re-live it Every second of every minute Don't know what Ma had come to risen Her actions might one day put me in prison When you marry, it's a commitment Through health and even in sickness Not supposed to be restricted To only a monthly visit I remember it vivid "Who do you wanna live with?" My Ma yellin' it Tryin' to get me to listen The explicit fights I would always witness Couldn't be explained by pictures Or even the best descriptions You had to view it Shit, I had to do it But I knew that no child is ever supposed to go through it It's just stupid It's supposed to be one family, one unit If you have it Feel blessed and pray you don't lose it I would never wish onto any child the things I've seen The pain it brings And the noise of subconscious screams A fate I couldn't grasp It's too late to be mad It's just frustrating knowing I can't change the past But I swear and vow Here and now That if I ever have a kid I'll never do what my Ma had done did I can't imagine doin' that to my child Now my eyes are open wide It'll be different around the house No fightin' allowed No cryin' no frowns No ending with no negative sounds I am what I am And I'll be what I'll be I can't believe what I've been through to get what I achieved God please I'm pleading, won't you listen to me? I'm tryin' to tell you This pain It's getting to me Mark at 2/09/2004 12:02:00 PM
Big, buff and 23 Runnin' every girl he see's Thinkin', "Man, nothin' bad'll ever happen to me." Until the invincible wiz is given a bib And finds that one of his girls is carryin' his kid So, faced with problems, he ducks out and runs Ready to bust one But not ready for a son Tryin' to play if off using the same lines "It's not mine Damn, girl, you're out of your mind." But next time you get all hype on the couch Think about if you're ready for what might be comin' out Instead of learnin' from it He goes searchin' for another girl Buyin' her things and promisin' the world But she's askin' how many girls he's macked with But he lies and says, "Girl, I always wrap it." But the fact is he's got the H-I-V And if you get with him you gon' get the A-I-D's He's positive tested The player was wreckless Nobody expected that he was infected And he was slick enough to convince you And every other girl he got with too He's the devious kind With one thing on his mind But somehow, he's got girls standin' in line So next time you're gettin' with that kind of guy You better think about if you're ready to die Mark at 2/09/2004 11:47:00 AM
Fifteen with dreams But trapped inside his home All alone 'cuz no one ever calls him on the phone Just a kid with nothin', but love to give It's tough to live with all the pain that comes to him But he's calm and never does wrong despite that Showin' people love is the way he fights back It's like everytime he thinks he's found a good person They kick him to the curb and he's right back to hurtin' Done a lot of things, livin' a good life But he'd give it all for not having the lonely nights He's at the breakin' point, he's had enough Sick of bein' tough, he's ready to give up Just because he didn't worry about what they didn't like They were so unfair to him that he took is own life What a waste, a soul shown nothin', but hate 'Cuz of people who would rather get drunk and bake Sheep that take pleasure out of beating the weak Followin' the ways of others from their head to their feet Instead of taking the time and being a good friend 'Cuz of people like you, we will never see him again Mark at 2/09/2004 11:30:00 AM
With each moment I develope into a better poet It's the raw code, only the elite know it Written scripts mixed with beat flips and drum kits Not to get rich, but because I love this Here's the fifth for everyone who's been through shit Walkin' the path of life and can't help, but trip On the blue collar chip on your shoulder tip Loadin' clips 'til the day the drug game is over with Runnin' the streets hustlin' drugs and bootlegs 'Least 'til two in the head leave you dead Spendin' every waking moment runnin' from the cops But you ain't gon stop, you'll just find another spot Take it up a notch, this time you roll thirty deep That's the only way you can survive these dirty streets It's gotta be rough not havin' a plan And can't stand not havin' an automatic in your hand 'Cuz without a glock, you don't feel like a man But you gotta get the money any way that you can A green piece of paper to you is worth more than life Long as you flossin' more ice then it's all tight When are you gonna learn that crime ain't nothin' but trouble? The only shit you gon' be talkin' up is in a court with a rebuttle Approachin' the stand Beggin' for a chance But 40 to life is the only thing the judge plans Mark at 2/09/2004 11:30:00 AM
-"Gotta hold on" My Lord, keep tellin' me why I should go on Hate is so strong, I don't think I can move on But I know I gotta stay strong I gotta hold on Your love inside of me Your slave is what I'm gon' try to be My lord, I know I will get by Just wipe the tears from my eyes With you, I can do no wrong My lord, I gotta hold on I gotta hold on and give you all that I have left 'Til I breathe my last breath And walk my last step My faith in you is all I need When lust and greed is all that I see I'ma show the world to walk by your side Open their eyes and live to do it right We gotta set aside all the corruptin' All the lustin' is gettin' disgustin' What happened to the word of christ? The terms of life All the things he sacrificed We're forgettin' that we've been given a chance to breathe Hear, talk, see And live lfe free So let's show some love To the lord above It's all because he gave it to us Fold your hands and point 'em to the sky Praise our lord 'til the day we die My lord, please forgive me for all the things I have done wrong And keep my family free from harm And if I should die before I wake I beg of you my soul to take All I'm askin' is for a little compassion No more frontin' And actin' Our time is passin' We gotta fight this evil And pull together as people No more hate No more lies No more rapes No more crimes We better believe we're bein' judged And all we can do is show some love 'Til our time finally comes So hold your loved ones close And keep up hope 'Cuz that faith is the one that we be needing most We're all meant to go through pain It's a test you gotta maintain Mark at 2/09/2004 11:20:00 AM
Now she was slightly dressed Out to impress Ready to party Gettin' casted for the club scene dyin' to shake her body To get on the set she compromise for the dollars Dancin' freaky with the rappers Obsessed with poppin' collars Brought some hairs and nails, found some playahs that rap While she sportin' the tiny shorts and shirt from baby gap Misinformed adolescent, she was teenage old Never told her in the Rov' She was wrongfully clothed Fellas after the flesh Ain't gonna see where I'm gettin' 'Cuz they measure every girl by these video women Mark at 2/09/2004 11:11:00 AM
She looks so fine No words can define She's always on my mind Thinkin' of how I could make her mine But I've done so many crimes Not hard for her to decline Thoughts of taking her out for a dine And maybe some wine But I don't have a single dime I tried to flow a little rhyme But I stuttered every line She gave me a sign Said, "Stop tryin', you're wasting your time." Mark at 2/09/2004 11:06:00 AM
I met this one chick at this one show Came up close to try and give this a go She said, "Thanks though But I don't think so You may have the flow But you ain't got the dough." Miss got me walkin' slow With my head down low Walkin' out the door Mark at 2/09/2004 11:03:00 AM
Turning short catches into long gains This here is how I play my game I got skllz that I can't explain No, I ain't fancy, but I do entertain Don't worry about my frame I'll cut and leave tracks of flame Each juke and jive, I'll make you strain Done broke your ankles, your balance is hard to maintain Leave you on the ground with stains As I bob and weave to move the chains Everytime I run, you know I'ma bring the pain Lights out like you ran into a train Make you regret that you ever came Waving at the refs to complain Your teamates pointing at you for the blame While I put you to shame Them ladies think you're lame You say you knew me before the fame Or so it is you claim Playah, you insane In truth you ain't never heard my name All them athletes at school, only I remain Bet you're surprised with what I became No, you and I and the same You could even ask your dame In the bedroom is where I tame Get a lil' dip and lick before the champaigne Yeah, miss, part of me from spain Seems that I might be vein But, ma, I know I got aim Mark at 2/09/2004 11:02:00 AM
I am that halfback That turns something out of nothing On the field, I'm quick to smack Dirty, you best pick up the slack You're fading from the pack I can see it's speed you lack Keep your mind on track All them moves ain't gonna give you a sack Don't come near me, playah, 'less you want your neck to crack Best watch me out back Cuz you never know when I'm gonna attack On the iron, I am the king Sweep out and to the ball I cling Got me to the outside? Get ready to swing You can't touch this, you only second string Once the season's over, don't be surprised if I flash the ring Mark at 2/09/2004 10:55:00 AM
I am that playah that roll's in the silver Benzo's Type that sport rocks the size of mento's Pick your miss up in the Range Rov' Jet black with the tinted window's Take her to a place where she gladly bend ov' Maybe later, but not yet though Gotta see if she can bounce to the 1980 flow She wanted to give it a go How could I tell her no? Swirved it up and down like she was a pro Thought you never did this before? Whatever, just go slow Mark at 2/09/2004 10:54:00 AM
I've been runnin' since understandin' confiscated my globe Stuterin' since expression stole the key to my soul Strigglin' since victory presumed control Battlin' since the truth infiltrated my mold Seekin' to find a life in an invinsible hold Travelin' down a path of a difficult road Runnin' without a clue of bein' left astray Writin' to express myself in a lyrical way Gazin' at the sky on a hill as I lay Lookin' for answers as night turns into day Wishin' that hope would come in a form of a ray Swearin' I'm gettin' closer, but really further away Mark at 2/09/2004 10:51:00 AM
I was born in the cold Moved to the heat Got used to the flame Now I spit it on beat I was raised in the womb Groomed by christ With a gift to raise souls from the tomb Please don't assume I ain't tryna take the spot Blow the spot Worldwide still part of the plot Everybody talkin' about changin' the game But everything I hear y'all soundin' the same From the beats to the videos Clothes and look See these around here, they can raise the dead So come on everybody now bob your head Y'all need to heed these words from the wise Rhymes so hot it'll make you rise Got truth for hire Can you stand the fire? To see you come alive, that's my desire Mark at 2/09/2004 10:44:00 AM
It's a different day And this particular day I was thinkin' about life and the part I play My purpose, man, feelin' worthless And if parenthood really was a part of the plan 'Cuz the way I see, I wasn't mean to be Just a great awake, in a love mistake So the price was paid and a life was made Then a wife betrayed, with a son to raise Foundation layed for the wrong influence Path directed by the wrong influence Runnin' wild, scarred child Headed upstate for the pen now Now when I'm grown with kids of my own I gotta do right what the gran's did wrong I'm in a battle for my soul control Tryin' to get back everything they stole Mark at 2/09/2004 10:44:00 AM
I think about her every minute Yes, I really mean it It's true, I can feel it Maybe, I've really found it 'Cuz through her eyes, I can see it Wonder if she'd give me her digits Might just be a little thing, but I don't believe it I see you laughin', it's cool, I'll deal with it Still wonderin' if I should bring it I came up close to come with it Oh, she's gone done did it My feelings have been shot, she told me to beat it Mark at 2/09/2004 10:36:00 AM
Girl, it seems you're easily persuade' Looks you'll often get layed Matters not if you get paid Might seem that you have it made But through the years, your beauty will surely fade Indeed, you'll be fazed With what you've done in your days Mark at 2/09/2004 10:33:00 AM
Naw, miss Ain't gotta do all of this We could just lay back and reminisce Ain't even gotta touch the bacardi and cris' Talk about the days when we used to get pissed Like that one time when your sister snatched your wrist Right after I gave you a sweet lil' kiss Came right over and threw a hiss I swear I wasn't tryna dis' But she wouldn't have it so she threw a fist Can't remember nothin', everything is a mist Mark at 2/09/2004 10:29:00 AM I know it's a cliche, but love is like a rose Tell you what she gotta say, give a hug and there she goes This much is true and everybody knows That it's all good when she play with your nose Up until she hits you with arrows from her many bows She dreams to see What color it may be The stream inside of you that flows Nobody knows why she does it You either love it or you hate it Acting like a child keeping things on the low It be driving you wild not knowing where she gon' go But before you drop this hopeless call Won't you stop and let her grow Give a kiss, watch her mature And this, I know for sure Before, she'll push and shove Because she wasn't ready to give you love But now she gives you her endless affection Don't be stupid, don't be askin' no jealous questions Because it's you that she done chose It's crazy, but that's just how this one goes Mark at 2/05/2004 04:11:00 AM Sittin' here lookin' back at these past couple of days It's been rough, true it has, man I'm still in a daze I can't wait for the day that I get out of this maze So many times that I came this close to blaze Never understanding how heavy the heart weighs The little memoriez that I had just drove me to craze But I knew better cuz I know it's just a phaze And soon enough, I'll be back to my old stylin' ways Mark at 1/30/2004 06:19:00 AM You want us rhymin' about a kick back? Ok, listen and just sit back Because the way I do is like a trick stack Never really knowin' what I'm sayin' cuz I spit mack Let me tell you how it is, how this bit raps You ain't heard nothin' until you witness how this hit slaps I'ma tell you a little story about this kid named "Slick Jack" An ok lookin' fella who could use a tic tac Not a lady in this room would even want to hit that But you see, he got girls runnin' over for a quick sack And no, they ain't be doin' it for his six pack What they is after is what them chicks lack Not the laughter, but the gem and the cadillac They be doin' little favors to get all of that As long as they keep it hush and under wraps Nowadays, everybody lookin' for a back to scratch Doin' this and that so their hat could match Gettin' this and that, what a handsome catch Give you this for that, no strings attached Now I know that his ways has appeal You can get rich quick, that's for real Gettin' things you ain't paid for, that's a meal Enron janitors makin' 'bout a mil' Got you reachin' and shakin' for a deal Up until 5-0 catches you and turns the wheel Good cop, bad cop gon' make you squeel What was then, now seems surreal Beating you with a stick that wounds reveal Waitin' on you to pass then ask "what'd ya steal?" After that, get back to me 'bout what ya feel Mark at 1/29/2004 03:19:00 AM
Let me explain to y'all why I'm phenomen-AL I ain't better at nothin' than being my own individu-AL My thoughts and views are all astronomic-AL For you to understand my way is gon' take a while But grown people don't bother cuz I'm just a child They just nod at my father and send a smile If they yell it any louder it'll get me riled Don't get the wrong idea, I ain't nothin' wild But you gotta see that my skills ain't nothin' mild The lyrics in my head flow longer than the nile Which I'm sure you know is a couple miles By now I'm sure you've figured out my style By now I'm sure you see why I'm phenomen-AL Mark at 1/29/2004 03:16:00 AM
There's a lotta things I like about this game called life From the bling that it brings to the fame and hype Little things you gotta do just to earn your stripe But it can easily be stripped with one puff of the pipe Like Tyrese done said, "I like them girls" they're all my type But unlike Next, you best believe I don't need no wife Cuz theres a lotta things I gotta do before I take that flight Like the feeling of victory under some stadium light Coulda done that, but things didn't go well that night I still wore my pride though it didn't burn that bright The things that I like is what I'm supposed to write So let me shout to the people that I love to fight Might sound violent, but me and my boys, we keep it tight Man, we done grew up together competing with height We was always angels around adults, acting polite But I remember runnin' from the shed they had me ignite Childhood friends cuz that's how we do, ya'll feel me, right? Mark at 1/29/2004 03:16:00 AM
-"Don't Question, Part2: The Other Side..." Baby girl, don't question my way, my life, my style Just because you didn't believe the things I done, I did, was to make you smile I didn't get nowhere, I wanted your hug, your kiss, girl, it's been a while Sittin' here with my thoughts wondering why you're in denial Girl, you know we been through so much that I don't want to end it now Wandering around not knowin' the way, take my hand and show me how Just wipe them tears, baby girl, I don't want to see you drown I don't know why I be tryin' so hard, yeah, I must be lookin' like a clown You know? The ones in the circus that be lookin' hella down The way you is, you are, got me lovin' what I've found But the way you be, you've been, got me losin' ground The way I is, I be, you know I'm ready for another round Give me another shot, I'll make it hot this time around Take your time, think this through and tell me how it sounds Mark at 1/29/2004 03:13:00 AM
-"Don't ever question..." Please don't ever question how I mother fucking run Nobody raised me, I'm my own mother fucking son I ain't never rolled with no mother fucking gun Ain't never smoked no mother fucking blunt Unlike G-Unit, this shit ain't no mother fucking stunt I just don't believe that it's the way things are mother fucking done Go on and say that I'm pulling a mother fucking front Mind my words, but I'm just mother fucking stunned Yeah, it's true that I try to have my mother fucking fun But my ways and views ain't no mother fucking pun Looking back through the battles that I mother fucking won Through the shit I been through without no mother fucking funds My decisions and visions have only been mother fucking shunned Fuck the pack, this is my own... my own mother fucking hunt Mark at 1/29/2004 03:12:00 AM
-"Better Dreams" I want to know more about ya I can feel it inside Look in your eyes See the stars with the feelings I hide They all collide With my words being simple enough Say it for only one sentence when you open me up I'm about a lot of bad things But it seldom seems That I live life without dreams And a path to keep me by You and I Might make it To sunnier skies I can't promise you the world But you know I will try I gives a damn if you're ghetto chick thick in them thighs I'm just lookin' for a shorty who'd stand by my side If we disagree at times Don't try to let it slide Let's talk it out You know that's just what life's about That he says And she says Shhhh I'm gonna flip out Just close your eyes and trust me Stop living in doubt I close my feelings to everyone I'm speaking out loud I close my feelings to everyone I'm speaking out loud I wrote a song about ya It's all about Better things Better dreams And how I feel about ya I can't refer you to anything I've ever seen Like shining stars Ghetto queens And millionaire dreams If I took the chance to love you Would you change who you'd be? Let alone Would it change me? Change what I see? Image hail close to heart Not knowin' what to do Live my life to be a thug Would the voting be true? It was luck when I saw you I didn't make the first move I just froze at a glance and I hope that you knew And I know I'm kinda wild But I really like to chill Not to be loud When I feel Comfortable Sit still If there came a point to tell you bad news I'll tell it straight Cuz I hate to hold it in and let it blow up in my face But if it's good news I'll hold it back just to play with you Just the little games The simple things I do I wrote a song about ya It's all about Better things Better dreams And how I feel about ya How does it feel? To think of One that thinks of More than a shrug of the shoulders when you had about enough When I'm fed up I keep my head up And look towards better places That's not set ups If I told this to my dawgs They wouldn't understand I'm tryna learn to be a man And remain a man Not a playah But the realest that can play his hands So I can say That I'm about Better things And about Better plans I can't say I feel your pain Just sometimes the sun don't shine right after rain Then comes the game Of better things Better times With better dreams If something seems A little off We can talk How light things Can quickly turn to dark This is what I feel This is what I feel I wrote a song about ya It's all about Better things Better dreams And how I feel about ya Mark at 1/29/2004 03:09:00 AM
Ay yo, I'm dreamin' and I don't wanna wake up Because it's her I'm feelin' and can never have enough She done made the first move askin' me "what's up?" And it's her that stuck through even tho I was rough But you see, after all this time, she's got me mesmerized Spending that one night just looking into her eyez Got me sitting here thinkin' if what we have could fly Because more than anything, I wanna give this a try But until then I'ma wait until she lets me drop my line Believe it or not, I can't wait until I can make her mine... Mark at 1/29/2004 03:09:00 AM
I slowly fell for her while my lonely heart was on the mend Never knowing that feelings I sought would be around the bend Doing things together that I never would have intend' She gave me the feelings that I could truly transcend Gave me all the reasons to leave the past and ascend Guy after guy, I had to repeatedly contend Day after day, it was her, I had to defend Week after week, it was her, that my heart had to depend I thought for sure that this little miss could break my little trend So one night, I dug deep knowing that these feelings had to extend Talkin' on the phone, I had to tell her that I couldn't pretend I had to tell her that it was her heart that I truly desired to apprehend A week later she gave me a message that my heart could not comprehend All I was to her was a simple friend... Mark at 1/29/2004 03:08:00 AM
She is my dream But what is a dream? A dream is something extraordinary Something that changes your ways Something that your heart beats to happily Something that you believe in no matter what one say Something that's in your thoughts each and every day A dream is everything positive you can name From dames to the big game, they're all the same But cloudy skies sets a foot before the rain brings you pain Because there is one thing that this dream cannot grasp A sense of reality which you cannot have Mark at 1/29/2004 03:07:00 AM
Ever since the day of our introduction She's been the very center of my attention Always in my thoughts causing so many distractions The way she lookin' got me feelin' the attraction The way she movin' got me losin' my traction For days I've been thinkin' of movin' with some action But too afraid to witness her overwhelming reaction Followed by a laugh, a point and a show of rejection I want nothing more than to give her my everlasting affection But as I stood there standing in front of my very own reflection I woke up and saw that I could never give her any satisfaction Mark at 1/29/2004 03:07:00 AM
You have no clue what I'll do for you Buy you a black benz and a blue one too I'll try to keep you cool in them fendi shoes Don't care what they think cuz you my boo Until I die, I'ma stick to you like glue I'll be there to take care of you, when you gots the flu Just to let you know how much I grew, I'ma see this through Whenever you want to talk, I gots a few Views about the future, having a child or two News about when our grandchild is due But until then, lemme know, how I can prove my love to you Mark at 1/29/2004 03:07:00 AM
I'm not physically blessed But mentally cursed Never ending thoughts That bring out the worst Thoughts of this Thoughts of that Make me wanna burst Haters making jokes Daring to go first I don't want to be labled As a man after that purse So many things in my mind That'll put me in a hearst But the thought of her in my arms Puts my life in reverse Thoughts of her Quenches my little thirst And so for her I rhyme this little verse Mark at 1/29/2004 03:06:00 AM
I'm the type that make you think of what you think you think Yeah, I know what I said gon' take you a couple of minutes to think Bust out a couple of bars before you could even blink From afar I spot your miss blowin' me a kiss and a little wink Took her home before I could even buy your miss a drink She wanted to get away from you, damn your stench must really stink Wouldn't hurt to spend more than just a couple of seconds on the sink She told me how much she hated how you always seemed to shrink Told me how much she loved how we make the perfect link She's mine now, I gots all the paper work and signed it off with ink Now tell me, what it is that you're thinkin' you think you think? Mark at 1/29/2004 03:06:00 AM
I got no skillz to make the mil's I'll forever be stuck on these lonely hills The way I grew gon' give you a chill Just thinkin' 'bout it make me wanna kill Now can someone tell me what the deal? Why they laugh when I show what I truly feel There's not enough time for these wounds to heal Mark at 1/29/2004 03:05:00 AM
Bringin' you the Midwest style to the West Coast Step up to me, playah, I'ma leave you toast What's wrong, patnah, looks like you've seen a ghost I know I'm raw, but you'll never catch me boast Cuz I know your miss is wantin' me the most Don't be mad cuz I'm the one she done chose I caught her eye with these stylish clothes And made her mine with these lyrical flows And all day she be strikin' me a pose Makin' her knees touchin' her elbows Makin' me happy is all she knows Mark at 1/29/2004 03:05:00 AM
Baby blue navy She wanna have my baby She buggin' me 'bout it daily I said "Baby girl you crazy We too young to be havin' no baby You may not see it, but I'm treatin' you fairly If I was any other dawg you'd be stretched out, maybe No, there ain't no maybe You'd be stretched out surely Now it seems like you're a nice lil' lady Clothes you wear, attitudes you bare got me thinkin' of you purely But the way you actin' 'round me Got me thinkin' of you poorly Check your views again for me You'll realize you're seein' life a little too prematurely Mark at 1/29/2004 03:04:00 AM
One time as I was chillin' at the base Miss caught my eye, made the temperature raise She had a pretty face And had so much grace A body which resembled a vase I wanted to say something, but couldn't think of a phrase Stood up to give a chase She picked up the pace Seemed like she wanted her space Probably thought I was a crazed Then she turned and to my amaze She held up a bottle of mase Had no choice, but to brace As my eyes turned ablaze She ran as I rolled over dazed For hours all I saw was haze I guess it was just one of them days Mark at 1/29/2004 03:04:00 AM
I have feelings for this girl I see But does she have the same feelings towards me? I wish I could tell her that she makes me whole But I'm afraid to say what's deep in my soul I want to let her know how I feel But I'm sure she's heard it all before, how will she know it's real? I don't want to lose her, for I would be alone And some days I just can't wait to hear her voice on the phone She does certain things to make me feel loved But days she wants to be alone makes me feel shoved I want to feel as though I am her knight on guard The one she can come to when times get hard I will always be there to help her along And before we met, I wasn't as strong I wish I could tell her what I feel inside But I'm afraid of what she'll say and how she'll act outside Mark at 1/29/2004 03:04:00 AM
-First rhyme I done wrote... Girl, will you let me be your everything Your world and all the joy real love can bring Let me be the one to set you free The one that'll take you across the sea Your heart is safe with me I promise to place it under a lock and key I promise to love you for all eternity Be there in your time of need Be your best friend Until the end Trust, love and loyalty You have all three in me Let me fulfill your every fantasy Making you happy is all that I can see So, lady, please Let me be the one to put your mind at ease Let me be whatever you define love to be Mark at 1/29/2004 03:03:00 AM
In the beginning I hesitated and debated within my soul Wrestling with my feelings knowing you were my goal Enduring the distance all alone and being content Longing your presence believing that we was meant To be, admitting that making you happy is my only intent You're the girl in my life I couldn't breathe without And I wrote this so that you wouldn't have any doubts Or misunderstanding of what my love is truly about Because from here on out it's all about us And from here on out I wanna build on trust Because being with you I see no reason to consider any other There's so many things about you I'm wanting to uncover So many feelings of mine I want you to discover I know what I want, I ain't gotta think this over Will you let me be your man? Let me be your lover? Mark at 1/29/2004 03:00:00 AM
Every break I come across Yeah, I'll feel blue And I'll be missing her gloss Yeah, it's true But I won't be reaching for a knife Because I know it's a lesson in life My Mama raised me right So I'ma be polite It's such a shame She wouldn't let me be her knight But I ain't aiming no blames Cuz it's gonna be a different story tonight Playing little games With cute little dames And not even knowing their names Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'll be alright Mark at 1/29/2004 03:00:00 AM
As I stood there looking for answers in her eyes She looked away and gave me nothing but lies Got me thinking for a few, wondering how love flies I just want a girl who would let me win her a prize Let me be the one to wipe her tears, whenever she cries Let me be the one she runs to whenever problems arise Let me be the one to answer all of her "why's" Let me be the only one who be feelin' them thighs Let me be the only one who measures her size I shoulda known better, cuz I know that I'm wise And with this wisdom, to all of you, I advise Never fall for a girl in love with so many guys Mark at 1/29/2004 02:58:00 AM
-"Romeo & Juliet..." From the families of Montague and Capulet Comes a story about Romeo and Juliet And it's a story that no one will ever forget But theres something about it I can't quite get How fast they fell in love, the hour they first met 2 hours in their relationship, a wedding was set Old man Friar thought this would relieve the family threat It was a decision that the Friar would certainly regret Cuz a set of bad luck and accidents caused all three to fret Death to Tybalt sent Romeo to Mantua on a jet Leaving the fair Juliet home alone to sweat Link after link, these were chained to later events Fault after fault, the lovers' clouds would later descent Desperate Juliet reached to the Friar with a pitiful lament Begging for a plan before her dagger creates her a vent The old man agreed so he could relieve his mental torment Back home to her father and his Paris, Juliet was sent Along with a potion that would mimic the dead, 100 percent Then a letter to Mantua for banished Romeo, the Friar has sent But later that day, the letter wasn't sent without his consent And upon Juliet's supposed funeral, Balthasar was content As a flash of dread went to his head and to Romeo he went A day longing for Juliet, Romeo has spent A little crib on the shore he went on to rent Waking up at the break of dawn for the early morning scent Thinking of all the things his love for Juliet represent Then all of a sudden, Balthasar out of wind and a little bent His arrival brought a smile to Romeo, which he will later resent Cuz Balthasar's news got Romeo wondering what it had meant After an exchange of words, Romeo's heart was left with a dent First, stopping by to offer gold for poison's compensation Then to Verona he went, riding to his final destination After being informed of Friar John's mis-collaboration Friar Laurence knew exactly what to do in his tight little situation He would try to save the foundation of his tiny little creation Off to the Capulet's family tomb to offer Juliet sweet salvation Unfortunately, the young Romeo has beaten him to the location Upon his arrival, he saw his Juliet in quiet isolation Even after death, it still showed, her beauty's manifestation After a few sorrowful good-bye's, he drank with no hesitation Just as fair Juliet's blood flow was returning to regulation The Holy Friar Laurence arrived with great trepidation Juliet, relieved after the wearing of the medication Horrified, after gaining a sense of realization The Friar, begging and pleading for her cooperation He had to flee as he felt The Watch's forthcoming vibration Leaving Juliet with thoughts that needed some explanation Juliet was frail, but remembered her faithful dedication She tapped her beating heart with a dagger to end all the frustration Mark at 1/29/2004 02:57:00 AM
-"A little story..." Let me tell you a little story A story which is everything, but nice Grab some tissue, it's sure to make you cry Grab hold, here we go to what I call "life" May 12 of 87 Sometime around hour 11 in the morn A child was born in the early mornin' storm A child which will grow not knowin' where he from Because when the time came to name God's sayings were put to shame The child was not given his rightful name Instead the child was given a name not his own H-U-F-A-N-A was the title on the paper shown But the child wasn't told of this until 5 years later And for this I very much hate her Before then, Ferron was stuck in his dome He grew up in a poor, but loving family Living happily in a little city called Quezon city But all this was torn away by a greedy mother Before I was born, an oppurtunity struck her She was pregnant with me from another man But she was offered love from a richer man The situation got her thinkin' of a plan A plan which might bring her to another land The cards were there and she gladly played her hand Her decision makin', I don't understand Each time I think about it got me yellin' "Damn!" In fact her mind was made before my birth She told the richer man she was carryin' his kid Accepted a ring then wondered his worth The day they got hitched got her blind It was a wedding made for the rich, I can't deny Flashes of bling, Angels that sing and one huge ring She was caught in the moment, no need to wonder why Fast forward to when I was 5 Waiting on the front porch for my mother to arrive Spotted my father looking at me with tears in his eyes Never knew someone that strong would be able to cry And with him my little brother standing by his side Together they came to hug me on the steps as they wept Confused, I had to ask "What's the matter, Papa? What's with all the drama? My shoe don't fit no more Me and mama just gon' try to find another." As mama arrived to claim me Papa came over and picked me up In his strong arms gave me one helluva hug A hug that seemed to say Good-Bye Now I had a clue to the tears that he cried After a few struggles, Mama grabbed me and told me "We're gonna fly Like the birds in the sky Grab your things then say Good-Bye" Tears in my eyes I just had to ask "Why?" And heaven forbid She slapped me like she always did With that look in her eyes "Don't even try" Last thing I saw before I cried myself to sleep A strong man on his knees Crying in pain because this woman took his kid Later that night as I awoke I was being carried away from what I knew There wasn't much hope I remember cryin' as we flew Grabbing attention from the passengers and crew Stewardess saw me depressed and asked "Is there anything I could do?" My ma, bein' as cold as she is "Would you please mind your biz? We're cool, My son's just acting like a fool. Oh, and a bottle of wine would do." Then I realized, our destination, I haven't a clue But I didn't dare ask because I knew what she would do Then I overheard "Soon, we'll be landing in the Lou." "The Lou?" "St.Louis, little man, I thought you knew?" "Naw, sir, all of this is new I was forced here, out of the blue." Mark at 1/29/2004 02:55:00 AM |
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Thinking of my past and how it was, oh so long ago Sad and alone being torn away, from my baby bro Poor from birth, I never had the pleasure living in a plateau Instead I lived in a crooked little house, far down below Never had a lot of friends, but somehow I had a lot of foe It always seemed that others were purposely stepping on my toe Nothing was ever given to me, wrapped with a pretty little bow OK, maybe a few, thanks to my step-father named Joe Who took me in as his own and never dared say "No" Providing me with a chance at life and a little dough Supporting me in every way, somehow knowing how far I could go I'm so very thankful and to him goes everything I owe So very grateful for easing this painful little woe But thanks to Vivan, a light bulb above my head started to glow Like the one that flashed above her head, when she saw the yellow snow She mentioned little things that got me rhyming this little flow Realizing life isn't perfect and will never be, I'm sure you know But you gotta stand strong and read the curves that it likes to throw Life's one pitiful pitcher, so you gotta be tough and take the blow Understanding how his style works, may be a little slow Because the number of high's, may never outnumber the low But in time, you'll see how it goes and may become a pro Maturing in your stance and showing that you can grow And with this, comes strength you can proudly show Succeeding in this little game of life, making others say "Whoa"... |
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